buddies

wei to mi: i know where u got that quotation,it's from tokyo drift,right?
i've decided not to study,i'm facing some studies difficulties..
no matter i've studied that page for more than ten or hundred times,it just wouldnt enter my mind..
i checked those words from the dictionary,though i got the word's meaning,but i would nvr get the meaning of the full sentence..
i'm not gd in studies,i dun even understand why..
why u guys could sit down on the chair,lookin at the book n within hours,at least u could memorize something which was so easy n i just couldnt do it????why izit so hard for me?
i wanted to start a new life too,but how could i?
failin or not to fail my course couldnt b decided by me.
if i fail,my mama gonna fcuk me like shit n u guys know what'll happen..
if i pass,i'm not sure which way i should take..i couldnt take the course which i'm interested..n i dunno whether i should work or not..
so,no matter i pass or fail,i'm still confuse..
i've been disturbed by these questions for a few months n i started to feel myself begin to change into a very irritating person..
dudes,pls jot down 10 workable ways for me to study..haha